goodbye 2009, welcome 2010

resolution? what resolution?? owh, u mean the New Year resolution?
mine is just typical students' --> survive and finish school & get myself home, proudly

today is already the last day of 2009. the day which mark the 365th day of knowing Dear. he, who i once thought would only be my single-serving fren; but now is my reason to live.

sadly, we wont be together to celebrate it. actually, same goes with all the celebrations we hv in the year (i.e bdays and such).. long distance r'ship is a pain in the ass. but well, i love him anyway.

very very much, muaaahhhhhhhhh!!

owh!! this also means i'm approaching the 'late-20s' in few days. SHOOT!!!

i miss my rainbow....

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi
Tak bercahya namun kau berseri
Tapi cukup menghiburkan
Hati ini..

2 weeks before going back into his arms...

Boxing Day..

so today is my 1st ever boxing day. it's almost the same like Black Friday (US) but it's pretty disappointing here coz the Factory Outlet wasn't opened. but well, i dont hv the money to shop anyway.

went to Bondi to accompany my fren shopping. bought a brandless clear Roman slipper for AUD5 at the shop outside of Bondi Mall. that's pretty much it.

speaking of shopping.. so what if i dont like Coach, Guess, Nine West but like Esprit, Roxy, Billabong instead? feel young rite? huhuhu~

* these 2 days move painstakingly slow.

lost...

i feel tired of my life...

i wonder if +1 is statistically significant here..

the question

some questions have the easiest answers to some people. question like 'asal mane? (where r u from)' sounds simple to u; but it wasnt for me. years after, then it comes as breeze for me to answer Putrajaya. i just made the assumption that they're asking where my parents are living now. not where i was born or where i grew up.

however, there is one question that i still find it hard to answer.

'who is ur bestfren?'

if bestfren is defined as somebody who has been with u long enough to know ur habits (good & bad), been there together thru the good & bad times, knows everything ure talking about and just let loose whenever ur together; then my straight answer now is my Dear. if ure referring to somebody among my FRENS, then i have none. i have few of frens whom i know they could lend a hand anytime i'm in hardship and happiness but they're close frens, not bestfrens. no hard feelings..

badly enough, it's all my fault. people see me as being fun most of the time, i hardly had painful times showed to them. being me, i shade any type of downside emotions from people around. i admit, i cant tell them anything when i'm feeling bad coz i dont want them to see me weak. in other words, i hv this 'face' i hv to maintain.

i just can't just open up.. this is me.

every night..

bau bj bucuk..
tenung gambo kt hp..
sengih sorg2..

u're beyond help la liyana. hahaha!

Dear Liyana,

Please...

.. be aware of ur surroundings all the time.
.. do not be a burden to others.
.. do not follow ur hunch blindly.
.. understand that every action has its consequences.
.. do not complaints much.
.. suck up.

why r u hurting the one u care for??

then...

and then, there is me.. and only me...

when all my closest fren around has left Sydney for good, the feeling of being alone crept in.. not only for the summer, but for the rest of my upcoming year..

no more frens' place to trash.. no more frens to watch movies & read blog together.. no more frens to just kaco2 anytime.. and no more frens to ask for courses 'how-to'..

i wanna go back.. now and not coming back here..

i'm alone...

.....

sakit gigi...... : (

plz....

let Monday comes fast.. i need him ASAP : (

Grand Pacific Drive Dec 5th

Grand Pacific Drive is sensational, a roller coaster ride through coastal rainforests, seaside villages and along a sensational strip of coast. The coastal route drive passes through from Sydney, starting in the Royal National Park, heads south to Wollongong, Shellharbour, Kiama, ending just north of Nowra, at Bomaderry.

Sea Cliff Bridge

Wanna hug Dear, but dier xde...
so just hug the tree instead..

7 Mile Beach

End of 150km journey..

food-

let's recap what i eat for today...

bfast:-
what bfast?? woke up at 2pm.. but i was hungry, so choco nuts

hi tea:-
mamee tomyam, mint green tea AND choco nuts

dinner:-
nachos with salsa, choco nuts

supper:-
cheese nachos with salsa, more choco nuts

a week of these than u'll gain that 5kilos back hahahaha!! stop eating crap, liyana.

Cherry Picking Dec 6th

After almost a year being in Oz, this is my 1st cherry picking trip. for those in Malaysia, cherries here are way way sweeter and better than those we have there hehehe.

Hui, Me, Syafiq & Yana

"Stylish" laborer Yana & Syafiq
- Pak Arab mane plak ni..

oh Cherry~

Partner in Crime, Hui
- byk ni je mampu kutip

Liyana & Liyana

CherryHaven
Town of Young

Big Merano

Summer~

Grand Pacific Drive completed.

photos and details to be uploaded soon..
too tired to do anything...
time to go to bed..
ciao...

perasaan...

ape perasaan bile org ckp "I have all of 4 HD mark" dgn slambernyer kt kite??

.. and u dont get that; and ur marks are all at border line to the better grade???? by border, i really mean BORDER like 1,2,3 points?!?!?!?

rase cm nk bunuh diri, bley???

* HD - high distinction (kire cm GPA 4.0 )

the questions..

in my mind over and over again..

what am i doing?
why am i so stupid??
is this alright??
can i just be gone?....