Thursday, December 31, 2009
mine is just typical students' --> survive and finish school & get myself home, proudly
today is already the last day of 2009. the day which mark the 365th day of knowing Dear. he, who i once thought would only be my single-serving fren; but now is my reason to live.
sadly, we wont be together to celebrate it. actually, same goes with all the celebrations we hv in the year (i.e bdays and such).. long distance r'ship is a pain in the ass. but well, i love him anyway.
very very much, muaaahhhhhhhhh!!
owh!! this also means i'm approaching the 'late-20s' in few days. SHOOT!!!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
went to Bondi to accompany my fren shopping. bought a brandless clear Roman slipper for AUD5 at the shop outside of Bondi Mall. that's pretty much it.
speaking of shopping.. so what if i dont like Coach, Guess, Nine West but like Esprit, Roxy, Billabong instead? feel young rite? huhuhu~
* these 2 days move painstakingly slow.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
however, there is one question that i still find it hard to answer.
'who is ur bestfren?'
if bestfren is defined as somebody who has been with u long enough to know ur habits (good & bad), been there together thru the good & bad times, knows everything ure talking about and just let loose whenever ur together; then my straight answer now is my Dear. if ure referring to somebody among my FRENS, then i have none. i have few of frens whom i know they could lend a hand anytime i'm in hardship and happiness but they're close frens, not bestfrens. no hard feelings..
badly enough, it's all my fault. people see me as being fun most of the time, i hardly had painful times showed to them. being me, i shade any type of downside emotions from people around. i admit, i cant tell them anything when i'm feeling bad coz i dont want them to see me weak. in other words, i hv this 'face' i hv to maintain.
i just can't just open up.. this is me.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
when all my closest fren around has left Sydney for good, the feeling of being alone crept in.. not only for the summer, but for the rest of my upcoming year..
no more frens' place to trash.. no more frens to watch movies & read blog together.. no more frens to just kaco2 anytime.. and no more frens to ask for courses 'how-to'..
i wanna go back.. now and not coming back here..
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Saturday, December 12, 2009
End of 150km journey..
Friday, December 11, 2009
what bfast?? woke up at 2pm.. but i was hungry, so choco nuts
mamee tomyam, mint green tea AND choco nuts
nachos with salsa, choco nuts
cheese nachos with salsa, more choco nuts
a week of these than u'll gain that 5kilos back hahahaha!! stop eating crap, liyana.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
.. and u dont get that; and ur marks are all at border line to the better grade???? by border, i really mean BORDER like 1,2,3 points?!?!?!?
rase cm nk bunuh diri, bley???
* HD - high distinction (kire cm GPA 4.0 )
Monday, November 30, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
now what should i do...
*target next week*
> go for walks, swim!<
50 days vs 1.5 months....
why does it feels like time hardly moves??
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
and i only managed to do 2 out of 5 analytical questions (not including the 5 simulation questions) in half day!!!!!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
"ajar anak2 ni susah.. ye la.. tgk time2 solat, time2 ceramah drang bg anak2 dok pusing naik turun (tgkt atas bwh) Hall, main pintu, tekan sane sini, conteng dinding.. yg peliknyer, mak bapak drang nmpk tp bleh wat xtau je.. jd sy harap kamu yg duduk di Hall ni bukak2 mata lah sikit, tegur mane yg boleh (yaa.. pastu silap2 kitorg yg kne marah ngan parents bdak2 tu) ...."
it's 4.50am and i can't sleep... hmmmm.... i miss my botak guy.... how will these 3 days w/o him be?....
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
i stil want my cekodok jagung and cekodok pisang!!!
Monday, November 09, 2009
Saturday, November 07, 2009
seems that i'm prone to sickness lately....
i cant wait for my finals to finally finish.. although i stil have a project due a week after that, the stress level is totally different that having 4 exams in 7 days.. worst, when u literally have less than 7 days to prep everything (thanks to ur projects and assignments)..
ok, i'm not supposed to babbling on these. like Dear always says.. what's done, is done.
i stil hv 1 more exam to go.. the 1st thing i'll do is SLEEP like i've never slept before.. i miss sleeping w/o being awaken by ALARM!!!
Friday, November 06, 2009
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Bintang malam katakan padanya
Aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya
Embun pagi sampaikan padanya
Biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya
Tahukah engkau wahai langit
Aku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya
Kan ku pasang hiasan angkasa yang terindah
Hanya untuk dirinya
Lagu rindu ini kuciptakan
Hanya untuk bidadari hatiku tercinta
Walau hanya nada sederhana
Ijinkan ku ungkap segenap rasa dan kerinduan
Saturday, October 31, 2009
i can't get away from my blog, no matter what. well, most prob coz i'm not feeling down now.. thanx to Dear, muaahhhhs!! altho he wont be around tomorrow and when i start my 1st paper on monday, i hope i wont freak out. i think i'm used to babbling to him to calm my nerve a bit before going to the exam hall. jeles plak dier lg frequent merendek ngan pokok2 je dr merendek with me...
here's the schedule for my 'action-packed' 7 days..
2/11 Mon - Advance Power Electronics <= hate this class
3/11 Tue - Mixed Signal Design
6/11 Fri - Engineering Econs
9/11 Mon - uElectronics Dsgn & Tech
bad news is, i'm not really done on the 9th. i still have a technical paper due on the 19th. sheeshhh, thanx to the Prof for not deciding what our project should be earlier.
ok la.. wish me the best and not tension2 je kejenyer... (my only ubat is him..)
**dear, now that u've read my letter.. do u know how much i miss u? kangen... i wish i could just go back like in this song..
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
after i'm finished, i'm not sure when i'll start writing back.. i'm troubled, my mind is occupied and i don't have the mood to write....
c u all when i c u..
Monday, October 26, 2009
why is everything got to be about money money money?!?!?
td balik2 bilik je trus bukak heater.. pastu turun bwh letak susu dlm fridge.. naik bilik rse panas lak.. bukak kipas (heater td ON lg).. tp pas 5 min, sejuk plak smp meremang2 bulu kt tgn.. OFF kipas.. pastu nengung tpi tingkap, rase lg sejuk.. bukak plak heater satu lg... ahhh bestnyer..
cik matahari, bile saudari nk kuor??? buah ati sy ckp dier asyik dgr sy komplen sejuk dan ujan je spjg masa sjak sy dtg sini (march '09).. hehehe cptla kuor ea..
then it started to slow down in college..
but i picked up again in Purdue due to the fact that i only had 20 mins to eat before starting my shifts.
after graduation, i guess it slowed down to normal speed.
but it got slower when i started working.. maybe coz i usually had full hour to finish a plate. so what's the rush rite??
here, i tend to eat slowly. coz i'm used to eat alone and i like watching people around me..
the thing is, i know my eating speed is common, or so i thought. then i realized that i'm a slow eater when..
~ i went for meals with frens and they cleaned their plates b4 me
~ went for trips and others had time to went 'jln2' and i'm stil not done when they came back
~ had meals with dear and yes, he had to wait for me as well...
apart from that, i also had this peculiar remark about the way i eat... few people said i eat orderly. 'mkn kemas', they said.. is it because i always eat (western food) fries first, then the meats, then only others like salads? easily said, i eat portion by portion..
is that weird??
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
since then, we've been living the separate life we've been having, altho i used to try not to notice. in my days now, i sometimes think of u but there's nothing i could do so that we wont drift.
everybody says the bond that we have could never be broken even if we die. i don't know whether it's true.
we're different, way too different...
Monday, October 19, 2009
morning - go to comp lab, go to class
afternoon - more classes or comp lab
evening - classes or comp lab
night - more lab..
lab == projects..
this is my 9am to 9pm schedule for these 5 days...
= no life. period.
what should i do???
i'm not regretting this, but these are making it harder to not to.
Grad schools is 100% opposite of Undergrad life.
Suck it up liyana.
U can't change anything now.
Make the best of it.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
at first, i was a bit scared. Coz the idea of needing to make new friends again is not so appealing to me. But when i first met her, i know we could get a long well.
She's from KL and obviously the talkative type (which lawyer dont, rite?). But she's from Uni of Sydney and will only be here for 2 semesters. What makes it awkward (early stage) is when i wanna call her..
"yana, u nk ikut i pegi Randwick tak?".. sounds like ME talking to ME! she also said the same thing hahaha!
well, that's one pal for now.. will write more later.. this couple of weeks is a crazy one for me... wish me the best!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
iftar: 1910 hour - glup! glup! mineral water..
2015 hr- finally a break. had rice & popcorn chicken in 10 mins.
2030 hr- class resume.. cpt laa abes... chocolate.. chocolate....
2120 hr- finished! but got 15 mins before the shuttle comes..
2125 hr- choc!! here i come!!!!
2210 hr- reached Hall. eat more rice, fries & popcorn chic..
2245 hr- choc yeay!!!!!
2305 hr- stil eating choc hee~
2315 hour - zZzzzZzzz....
for me, i dont really prefer going to library, coz i had to go out and walk to Uni and i can't sit in any position i want or eat at anytime i want. i need to find a spot in Hall. but i guess i do need to go to Uni coz normally if i go to Uni, that'll be like solid 4-6 hours of studying. that's the correct way of studying right?
i'll figure it out soon...
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
but owh, u shouldnt worry about that yet liyana. u still hv ur projects to do. cepat! cepat!
wak... cmne ni wak?? cm ag teruk dr last sem je ni..... wak ganti sy bley???
Sunday, October 04, 2009
it's 0003 hour of Sunday. today is another day full of eating. i had (instant) Cappuccino and Cornflakes +Milo cereal for b'fast. then it's sushi for lunch. finally open house for dinner, where i ate tomato rice, curry mee, pulut kuning and beef rendang.. but that was around 6pm. and yes, i'm hungry now!!! i just finished another bowl of cereal and i'm running out of food to eat.. so i'm going to bed.
i wanna hv a pleasant dream tonight, as it's been such a great day for me (u know why my dear). Nite-nite dear, nite-nite everybody...
Thursday, October 01, 2009
i got a shocking news just now.. suddenly almost all of my Kulim frens are getting married. tonight i know 3 of them. tekejut..... only 3 of my close frens left, but it's no surprise now if later i'll know it's their turn too.. i'm soon to be out of their league............. somehow i felt rejected...
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
being a Malay, there are certain type of food and drinks ure encouraged and discouraged to consume during certain time period of your life (i think chinese and indians as well). honestly, i don't really know which of those. i may only am aware of statements like nenas is tajam, kelapa is sejuk. but i know there are a lot more, especially if u ask the older-older generations.
of coz i believe there are (scientifically proved and not) advantages by following the guidelines, but .... being me, as long as it's safe, i normally just eat and drink whatever i want to, at any time (while i can).. i think in the future when i'm pregnant or in 'berpantang', i would definitely need a list in my purse. there is no way i could remember all the dos' and donts'..
or maybe i should just practice being in the safe side?? only drink plain water and eat rice with ikan goreng....... persoalannyer then.. larat ker nk telan?? or.. i could just ask my hubby to take care of all the food?? hehehehe
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Wrong timing, mate!
Friday, September 25, 2009
i've decided to have cendol, pisang goreng (fried bananas), Ramly Burger and a lot more!!!!!
* tomorrow i'll be getting my allowance, hope it's the correct amount AND includes the 2 months backdated ones as well...*sigh*
my roomie will hv classes on fri sat and will be staying at frens' during that time for the rest of the semester, dear would be out every w'ends as usual.
i really am left alone, aren't i?
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I have finished my lab for next week. So i could have a head on the next lab. This shows how much i love digital circuit than of analog. uurghhhh!! i ended up finishing it after i got back from class at 10pm without realizing it's almost 1am when i'm done. talk about ke'ghalik'an..
now i'm going to bed. i hope i'll dream of my Dear coz i miss him badly....
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
tgk jam baru 8.15pm.. shoot! br 45min ke? so sambung tulis2 sket.. men game.. becucuk tanam kt facebook.. tgk2 gambo...
tgk ag jam, baru 9.14pm!!!! aaarrghhh!!!! mati kesangapan cmni...............
somebody asked me just now, 'dh start akademik ker? rajin nyer... ni 3rd day raye ni'. Dang! i already had lab during my 2nd raya and a class just now..
Monday, September 21, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
i dont hv the mood to stay at hall for iftar.. so maybe i could just wonder around at uni til 7 or 8.. maybe i would find a spot to cry my heart out... i already miss him...
Friday, September 18, 2009
nothing seems to be on my side right now.. felt that i've come to another halt in my journey.. it does feel that i've been here before but looks like i've to climb higher to get out of this hole.. it's hard to pretend that everything's fine, but i guess i did well coz no one ask..
wish he's here..
Aku ingin engkau slalu, hadir dan temani aku..
Disetiap langkah, yg meyakiniku,
Kau tercipta untukku,
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
and my selsema is getting bad. i've been sneazing whole day, and dgn bijaknyer without realizing it, i was filling in the saf during tarawikh directly at the flow of the air-cond. nice...
i just ate Chlorpheniramine Maeate pill (or in other words, ubat selsema) but i wonder if it works... last time in Desaru it didn't. then the label says that i might get sleepy soon hehehe~ can i sleep when i've already slept for 2 hours before iftar?
wak, sy berjaya tido ptg jugak arini hahaha
*tgk wak, sy mkn byk2 pn makin susut gak. cmner ni?
apart from that, i'hv been having runny and itchy nose since last night. it got worsen when i woke up early in the morning (due to the cold, i guess). then comes the headache and the sudden heat engulfing my body (agak musykil dgn ini)..
am i getting a fever?? given the condition when i get sick, i better not! i hv an exam next week and i need to study...
Saturday, September 12, 2009
honestly, i dunno what to expect. my last Qiam was like ages ago, i believe it's in MRSM years. like 9 yrs back.. per schedule, the Qiam is supposed to be at 3.15 to 4am, then sahur and later Subuh at 4.45am. this is rather a short Qiam i would say. i used to go for 3 hours Qiam (== 2 hours of sleeping at the back of the praying hall) during my sekolah agama years hehehe.
funny thing, me and my rumie were getting ready to sleep at 11pm when suddenly an announcement was made and somebody knocked on the door. turned out that there was a b-day and farewell 'makan-makan' going on. so we rushed downstairs, ate 2 slices of cakes (caramel cheese and choc moist) and head back to sleep.
adeii.. I ATE A LOT TODAY!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
amal tanpa ilmu itu jahil,
ilmu tanpa amal itu bodoh.
it's true isn't it? although to me, dua-dua pn xde guna. manusia sentiasa boleh membuat pilihan samada mereka ingin dikategorikn sebagai salah satu drpd 2 kategori ni, atau pn tidak sama skali. sedar atau tidak, seseorang itu sentiasa dlm proses mencari ilmu.
so bila rasa ader ilmu tu, xsalah kite beramal dgn cara yg paling mudah iaitu dgn berkongsi. jgn pikir yg ilmu kita ada itu mungkin xseberapa sbb kite sdiri xtau tahap ilmu sesorg insan yg lain. kite mungkin ingt seseorg itu sgt bijak, tp ketahuilah tiada manusia yg tahu segala-galanya.
bahkan, for me. lg byk yg sy tau, rasa mcm lg byk yg sy xtau. and lebih2 lg sy berada di sebuah institusi pengajian, sy dpt lihat betapa byknya pilihan yg pelajar2 ada. ya, sy mungkin mengetahui serba-serbi mengenai engineering tp bgaimana agaknya tahap pengetahuan sy di dlm ekonomi, IT dan lain2 lagi??
i'm not that smart aren't i?? are u?
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
== means i will only have 5 days from my midsem break left
== means i've gone thru my 2bdays without doing anything much productive
== means i hvn't start studying for my Advance Power Electronics exam next week!!!!! Noooooo!!!
therefore, tomorrow u gotta get ur ass up to the library Liyana. NO EXCUSES!!
* Iftar --> Chicken Rice
Later --> Fried Macarony, then more rice...
whoa! like u said Dear, suddenly i got a lot of food :)
turned out that the common surah in my previous entry is al-Qadr. the surah is being recited as sunnah.
it's weird for me since ever since i know, the masjid i went to always recite the whole juzuk per day during Tarawikh.. this is the alternative to recite short surah instead. During the 1st to 15th night, al-Ikhlas will be recited during the 2nd rakaat. and then al-Qadr for every 2nd rakaat during the period of 16th - 30th of Ramadhan..
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Saturday, September 05, 2009
the 1st round of food was the 'kuih-muih' - kurma, popia goreng, samosa, bengkang, kuih tako and some fruits. after maghrib prayer, it's briani with chicken curry, with salads and popadum as sides. after trawih, it's bubur kacang with durian and fruits (strawberries, grapes and oranges). even the drinks were of many options - apple & mango, apple & berries, multivitamin juice, tea and milk tea.i have to say today was very filling and i ate like crazy. the serving was huge and it's kinda sad coz i couldnt finished the briani. it's too much. plus, i was helping in serving out, so after while, i dont feel hungry anymore... i only got to eat after the others has finished. the hall was packed so there're people eating outside under the tent. we'll see tomorrow...
owh and i got to do my 1st tarawih prayer (shame on me, only start doing it after half of Ramadhan is gone!!).. i only did 8 rakaat and for some reason the imam recite the same surah at every 1st rakaat of 2... i find it puzzling coz i never been to prayers like that.. anyways, it doesnt really matter.. i guess i will only be able to go to tarawih with different Juzuk recital in Malaysia after i graduate..
but by doing so, i'll get to know a new friend and lots more since it is the Malaysian Hall. i'll hv to be used to not playing my music out loud all the time, turning the lights on til 4am when i couldn't sleep, not wearing anything i want in the room, not being online for 24/7 and crying anytime i feel like it...
life will be filled with sharing of everything, doing weekly chores at the hall like cleaning and keeping any kind of sound down. but well, it''s a choice i've taken. so i hv got to face it whether i want it or not.....
Thursday, September 03, 2009
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
on a side note, 1st time tgk iklan merokok yg AGAK real kt tv mesia.. dh lame pk, sbb kt Oz ni iklan smoking dier tunjuk effect direct jek (wlpn lagu dier bengong xkene).. and of coz lg real and scary compare to mesia punyer.. patut buat je cmtu, bior tekejut sket.. aku sdiri pn tekedu tgk 1st time dlu.. dh la elok tgh mkn.. nasib dh biaser tgk CSI... kalo tak, bwuwweekkk!
Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
well, we tapau a lot of porridge and the jelly for sahur and breaking fast tomorrow (not that i'll eat).
aihh i wonder when i could settle all the monetary stuff so that i could budget to buy stuffs for popia (spring roll) before i move to Hall.......
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Kaki anda.....dibaluti 2 psg stokin sbb trase sejukkk sgt. Iye la, name pn winter kn?
Komputer riba anda...dh burok dh tp stil bley berbakti. Tp br gune 30 min dier dh hot dh.. apadaa..
Kepala anda... kpale sy.. nape dgn kpale sy??
Kasut anda... kaler dier itam.. spt mane kebykan kasut2 sy yg len.
Band kesukaan anda....susah nk ckp ni, mane yg best layan...
Kereta anda...kaler itam lg, sy rindu kete sy. Jauh di perantauan sane hehehe!
Hidup anda... saat ni xde ah best sgt.. tp syukur la sbb idup lg..
Kerja anda... ngadap laptop ni ble dh sangap, cthnyer skrg ni.
Motor anda... tak wujud sbb sy tak reti bw moto.. org ckp sy terrer pick up blajo, tp bw motor la satu2nyer yg sy mmg xphm2 bile blajo..
Henpon anda... ader je kt tepi ni.. sy suke Sony Ericsson!
Anda ada.... ati dan perasaan. Ye la.. smer manusia pn ader kn?
Baju anda... lebey 70% berwarna itam.
Anda suka.. masak dan makan.
Anda tak suka... nyamuk yg suke ngeeonggg-ngeeonnggg kt telinga.
Anda sedang... menunggu citer Harry Potter stat kol 7.30 kang. Ader lg 45min.
Anda berasa... sangap.
Anda tak berasa... puas ati.
Dua tahun dari sekarang... sy dh abis blajo (insyaAllah) dan balik ke mesia yeayyy!!!
Dua tahun lepas... sy sedang melepak kt umah Kulim. Enjoy nyer life.
Masa kecik-kecik, anda... suke bawak beskal laju2 turun bukit dpn umah yg angle nyer dkt 60-drjah smp slalu hampir kene lggr. Xkene lggr pn, masuk parit tepi jln. Owh beskal BMX-ku yg hebat~
Anda mula.. tau sy takut darah time eksperimen biologi form 5 biler tgk mmbr sy cucuk tgn dier.. huhuuu~
Anda menyesal... pegi Europe aritu sbb skrg idup dikelilingi utang
Anda memang mahukan... idup yg xde masalah dgn bf tercinta, tp mustahil mslah xde..
Anda suka... men air. Ape2 yg kne ngene ngan air.
Anda rasa... duit MEMANG punca segala masalah. Idup zmn batu pn best kalo takat nk beli lauk tu leh trade in ikan ke.. ayam ke.. kambing ke..
Anda rasa, sepatutnya... sy buat assignment skrg ni.
Anda akan.. pindh umah next week. Ucapkn slamat tggal kpd tangga yg suke cium sy dan pili air yg suke short-circuitkn sy. Yezzaa!
Anda... betul2 rase sangap.
aih.. kalo lah bley blk ke zaman tu (minus all the perang2).. it'd be nice, kn wak?
Dan apakah kata-kata
Yang indah untuk diabadikan
Tiap wajah berkisah
Tiap madah bererti
Cahaya di matamu
Senyum di bibirmu
mengukir seribu tanda pertanyaan
Mungkinkah kau jua dalam kerinduan
Di saat begini aku merindukah
Terbiar di depanku
Tak dapat aku utuskan
Ku ramas semua
Dan ku buangkan
Jauh dari pandangan
Lalu aku kesal
Ku kumpul semula
Tak dapat ku nyatakan apa yang ku rasa
Jika engkau tahu di dalam hatiku
Mungkinkah kau sahut jeritan batinku
Dengarkanlah lagu untukmu
Angin lalu kau sampaikan
Rasa rindu yang membara
Kian pudar bersama
Malam yang gelap gelita
Entahkan kau rasakan
Apa yang aku rasa
Atau kau tak endah
Tapi ku percaya
Semua telah tertulis
Dan niat suciku takkan disiakan
Dan di suatu masa
Di hari yang indah
* still looking for smthg to do now (other than assigmnts...) pemalas!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
anyway, this was in Kuantan Megamall (ea ke wak name mall ni?)
me, ezrul, kecik & shaira went to bowl after we watched a movie. i thought i dont wanna play, but i did for a while while waiting for dear to pick me up... and that my fren, is the last bowling game i played in Malaysia before coming to Sydney......