i have always learnt to put a wall around me.
don't force me coz when that wall breaks, i break.

balik~

ntah npe rse xsabo nk balik KL this w'end...


- dpt jumpe bdak Gemuk ngan Ek-ek
- MIDE-MIDE (pasni poket kering $$$)
- ronggeng bsama sepupu-sepapat
- nk bli seliper Fippers (ni pn excited ke??)


mm.. my parents gave me buah Nona.. and dukong.. i think i hvn't eat these fruits for like what... 3 yrs??

i don't think this blog will longer provide fun, sweet, happy updates.
as days goes by, my faith on living is gradually decreasing..


everything i think of, hurts me.
everything i do, hurt others.
my surroundings doesn't help either.
makes me want to crawl to the deepest hole possible.


i don't want to leave,
as i don't hv enough things to bring yet. 


but i don't want to live,
as i don't hv anything left for me here.


both ways, i loose..

do not ask me why,

i will never tell u the reason.

do not ask me why,

i am the only one who knows what's going on.

i am a piece of paper

that can be crumpled..
tossed around..
and thrown away..

as pleased...

siapalah aku....

my day is low...


that person is missing :(

dlu aku sndiri..
kini masih sndiri..
hadapi hidup ini....


susah senang diriku..
tak btpt mengadu..
spt burung kepatahan sayap..


di hati kecil, ku menaruh harapan...


*wlpn aku tau xmgkin.. kerna tiada yg mgkin utk aku....

pisau tu gunenyer utk potong buah. bkn jari k.


tpi tgn pn bley je.. pisau Ikea ni lulus tahap ketajaman..

the other person

my fever is gone. only left a bit of sore throat and cold.


but the other person is still sick. not improving much for the past 3 days.
and bcoz the other person is sick, that person is relieved from (dreadful) work for the rest of the week.
but bcoz that person is sick, that person is kongsi-rested and cannot go anywhere.
to stay put. no going out far, no driving.


and me no like it :(

sick??

well... demam dh kebah..
tpi...


selsema and batuk.. NOT..
tpi..


paling tension ngan selsema ni.. sbb dier cm stuck kt dlm hidung (xde kne hembus2 kuor ke ape ea).. and bcoz of that, telinge sakit.. bedengung.. rse cm dok bwh laut 2-3 atm (ecece).. dh equalized pn xjd.. effective for maybe 5 mins?


mm... ptg ni kne g jmpe doctor balik... dh seminggu ni....

never felt this lonely....

out again for 5 days..
i hope i can survive : (

sbb 7 ari xde.. 
akibatnyer ==> demam. 
complete pakej : selsema, sakit tekak,  mata berair, lenguh sendi & bdn, sakit kpale..

from 4... becomes 6...
: (

another 2 days to go .. : (