i see the life and events move around me. how i wish my world is the same as others. but also how it's impossible just because i'm missing that one single most important part that define my world as complete. i once thought i already grasped it in my hands; when i never actually did.


i honestly don't know how long i could stand this. breathing without living, gasping most of the time. smiling although bleeding inside, pretending.


i lost my direction...