today i felt cam depressed jek.. coming in the morning, i got a headache but it soothed out later. came to work with this weird feeling. i dont want to meet people. i dont want any civilization around me. i want to be alone. alto that wouldnt help me much to be un-depressed. i just need a break. it'd really be nice if i'm alone laying somewhere enjoying the serene atmosphere. maybe at a waterfall or some isolated beach. that would be awesome to fix my messy mind.

it's not a good thing when i have too much thing running around my mind. if it's bad, i'd keep it to myself. my wall of ego-ism is way too thick and i've lost the key to open the gate to talk about it.

but to think again, i would enjoy a company.. no conversation is need. just being there is enough..

mumbling..

i have no idea what to write. tomorrow i have my primary school gath at the Curve.. it's a mini one so we'll see how many poeple show up..

goshh.. i felt dreadful.. dunno why.. just is.

i saw a death today ( well yesterday).
me and nisa went for dinner after work.
it's drizzling and after some dinner, it's already 9.30pm.
so i ran to the car.
upon opening the door, i saw a frog hopping towards the road.
of course, i greet it (LOL! i used to talk with frogs while i was in K. Trg).
but being a frog, it hopped away towards the road.
suddenly a motorbike speed off pass it and the froggie stopped.
i gasped and thought it should just continue hopping across instead.
then suddenly, a SUV drove off and crushed it. Errkkk?! Ewwwwww!!
i was speechless but felt sorry for it..
it's a weird feeling..

What Do U Do When..

- Someone say her life is miserable?
- Someone say she is fine but u know she is lying?
- Someone dear to u is avoiding u?
- You saw someone close to u is in pain?
- You know ur fren is hiding something from u?
- You like someone, but that person dont like u?
- You are miserable.
- You feel like a loser and the world is against u.
- You are in pain.

I Would..
+ Ask her why is that so.. and just listen..
+ Ask again and assure her that i am here for her.. people lie for a reason.
+ Ask her why and ask for forgiveness even if it isnt my fault.
+ As before. be a good listener.
+ Dont push her to tell. she will when she's ready.
+ Be sad for a while. Suck it up and move on.
+ Be alone and think y.
+ refer above. normally this is only a short term thing.
+ Nothing. Think about it for awhile. then the pain just gradually dissapear.

*i'm this 'species' that dont open up to people easily. frens r for fun. i dont feel like a good thing to burden frens with ur trouble. it's mine to deal with. enuff said, my EGO is high.

Just finished loafing around the house for the 3-day break.. so what i did? sleep, eat, watch Japan series, sleep eat, watch japan series.. i've been sleeping after Subuh for the past 3 days.. hehee..y? coz Streamyx is way better btwn the time 2-6am. uhuhuh no buffering to watch series online ; )

So tomorrow is back to work! and the starting of WLE (work late everynight) *sigh*