butterflies..

it's 2.35pm on one friday evening. i am waiting for kimberly to appear from her 1:1 with our boss, CH. realizing i hv no idea what to tell him, i have these wild butterflies flying around in my stomach. the purpose of this 1:1 is to discuss the Individual Development Plan (IDP) for 2007. also for Focal review for those permanent employee ( not for Graduate Trainees). honestly, i dont know where my direction is. seems like my knowledge is almost near to zero in this computer area. everything is new and one of the way to learn is by reading, which i suck at. *sigh*. i stil have the fear of damaging the system everytime i want to try something. the most recent, i broke one of the dimm connectors on one of my boards. due to that, i lost some connections on my memory test. wah lao! i know each board coz like hundreds of dollars.. (i got two). so i wonder how much will the rework cost. CH might be angry coz when i first receive it, he told everyone to be careful with their product coz they're all EXPENSIVE! but CS is sooo cool, saying it's normal. he broke a lot of the connectors before.

now.. what will i say when Ch ask me, " So what kind of development do u think u need? how well do u think ur knowledge in this area is? Do u think u can manage the projects fro this year?" Dang!