i try...

i thought i'm fine,
but i lied..


i said to myself, someday..
but it's getting harder each day..


i tried,
but i really can't..


i tried,
but it really hurts..


i tried,
until i really wish i'm no longer me..


i tried,
until everything i see,
made me think,
how can i use it,
to make me disappear,
forever and after...