i wonder when...

...i can wear my shoes again...

due to the wound behind my ankle on sunday, i still hv to use band-aid when i want to wear my sandals (since i hv no slippers). tried to wear shoes yesterday but it's still painful. even the traction of the wound with my jeans is a pain, think about the shoes... so with the temperature ranges btwn 13-15 degrees at night, i'm left with cold feet everynight during class....

i wish i hv an unlimited supply of chocolates for the rest of my life....

i think my body is screwed up. i dont know what's wrong, maybe it's the hormones.

i cant sleep last night. i was really sleepy and tired by the time i returned from class at 9pm. went to bed early but after tossing and turning, felt asleep around 12.30am.. but i woke up after less than hour, and later find myself unable to sleep back.. finally passed out at 5am and woke up at 9 smthg...

even now, i feel lethargic.. my whole body is aching and my brain can barely do nothing. spent the day reading on project mgmt (PM) tutorial.. managed to read only up to 32 pages of textbooks (God! til now i really hate reading ALL TEXT). stil hv 3 more to go and still need to deduce all the stuff that i read to gv MY OPINION in the tutorial...... haiishhh....

tmrw i need to go to uni early to settle the stupid bank stuff, finish reading PM and do my RF assignment.. which also means, for this week.. i went to uni early morning everyday of my class.... spending 10-11 hours at uni is no fun thing..

i feel so exhausted..

i forgot what i want to write....

ache...

sakit lengan..

sakit bahu....

sakit belikat...

-dh lame x angkat bende berat.. and i think bcoz of the heavy lifting last night, i may hv caused my shoulder pain to come back... i think i should hv reported that to OHS people kt kilang dlu.. all this sbb ingt kuat sgt nk angkat server yg cm guni beras tu...

sakit lutut..

- i thought luka kt kaki je.. rupenyer lebam kt lutut ngan peha skali....

mm...

for some reason... stil rse xbest.. and xsedap ati....

why??? ......

elong...

iko....

iko makelong ruang rindu.. iyak mo ungkalingai....

quack! quack!

my house mate forgot to switch off her alarm before she went to work.. and her room is locked.. i guess tonite i'll be sleeping with the sound of duck's quacking... kinda weird, i thought after awhile it'll stop but it's been quacking for 20 mins already..

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owh, it stopped after half an hour...

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i miss dear.. badly.... i don't know why earlier i felt like he's leaving me when he said he gotta hang up to drive for his weekly-w'ends-away routine.. i don't know why my voice just stuck in my throat when he asked whether i'm ok or not.. i want to tell him that i love him and miss him.. yet, the only word that came out was me calling out for him... i'm really glad that he stayed on the line even after he said he has to go, just bcoz i wasn't feeling good...

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i dunno what's wrong with me today.. out of the blue, i felt really down.. suddenly i'm sensitive and been pessimist to almost everythg..

i feel like i'm a burden.

with my unpredictable mood, feels like i've caused a lot of trouble to the one that i love. maybe up to the point that he doesn't know what to do with me any more (?).. i try to think positive and keep rationalizing everything, but sometimes (most of the times) i know i'm not..

i feel like i'm unwanted.

believe me or not, no one seems to take notice of my existence here. feels like people who were once in my life don't talk to me, don't miss me and don't care for me anymore. they just move on.. this maybe partly coz i dont really know what to talk with them.

i feel ashamed.

i got nothing to give to the people who i want to be close with. dear said it's not about the materials, but i think it's all about that; altho not to him. i feel inferior coz i see how their faces lit up or how excited there're when there're gifts or anytime there're open table (belanja). being in my situation, i can't gv all of that. and if i do, it's hardly nothing compared to what others give. bcoz of that, i feel that i'm drifting away from everybody..

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i'm not having my PMS since my period is stil far away, so what's happening?? i guess i'm having this monthly thing today... how i wish ure here right now.. i need ur hug...

sejuk??

liyana,
nape la kamu ni bodoh sgt x bwk sweater?? kn dh sejuk. kamu ingt kamu puyer lemak tu cukup tebal nk jd penebat ke???

==> kate liyana pd dirinyer... huuu~

iklan..

today's topic is advertisement a.k.a Ad. more specific, SMOKING AD. In Australia. i've been here for more than a year, and honestly am quite impressed with the effort the gov here gv to discourage their residents to quit smoking.

how?

first, the ad on the cigarette pack itself. i think m'sia's packs also have this, but i dont think it's as big as it is here.

see? the ad covers the whole package.

and also their TV ad. it's so graphic. the full ad in TV combines multiple 'diseases' due to smoking. altho that ad has this weird song, it does make its' point. and a warning here, if ure not the type that can watch CSI while eating, DO NOT WATCH. this is just an excerpt (only 1).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-YjrkBYDDQM&feature=related

so how? convincing enough?

iko...

ioh eburöng iyak chabiru naiya ioh maköda “iyak machöning”..

muaahhhh!

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Accidently listened to a song which..

immediately crashed my mood...

: (

what's wrong??

Episode 1 : Thursday - the door

I was in rush to go to uni to do my assignmt. In rush coz my friends was almost there yet I'm not even on my way yet. As i stormed down the stairs I realized that I didnt bring the adaptop for my laptop so I climbed back up. I got the shock when I put my key in and the key hole didnt budge. shoot! something's wrong with my keys! and i'm not sure if my house mate was in. and i'm late.

few minutes of struggling, i realized that I GOT THE WRONG UNIT!!! my unit is another floor up!!! argghh luckily no one was home so my effort of knocking like crazy person didn't caused anyone to come to the door and embarrassed me. i thought i've climbed enough stairs.. guess I didnt huh?

Episode 2: Saturday - the car

We're having so cooking at my place and we're running behind the schedule. and everybody cant wait to get to the beach to eat. All 8 of us brought the food to one of our friend's car parked across the road. when we're there, she cant get the door to open. she even had us tried to open it for us. still failed.

one of the guys even asked jokingly her whether she had the right car. after almost 10 minutes stumbling on the keys.. and yeah, he WAS RIGHT! that car had the same model like hers, but slightly different color hehehehe. kinda funny coz all 8 of us just stand there surrounding the cars with a lot of stuffs in hand.

so, what can i say? it's all about the rush..

life.. still......

somebody said that my life now is so easy. i dont hv to think of things other than my studies.

how i wish that someone could be me for just 1 day. feel what i've been feeling and know what're on my mind..

then only, he/she would know how messy my life is, how worried and unfortunate i am....

nothing i can say

my life is a jigsaw puzzle..

but it's a mess..

and unfortunately, some pieces are missing..

which means..

i would never have the complete picture.....

Cinta

just finished watching Ketika Cinta Bertasbih. surprisingly i understand the whole story even without the subtitle (all Indonesian language). but.. tension sbb ending dier is to the 2nd Movie!!!

Honestly, i felt that she is so lucky to have the choices. altho whether she has made the right choice or not, that's up to her...