I hv been absent-minded and out of focus lately. I think I think too much of unnecessary things that my brain simply goes haywire : (
Somebody told me that I've been forgotten. Btul2 reminds me of old Malay saying, "Habis madu, sepah dibuang". Of course it hurts but i cant change the fact that that person, X, has left the biggest ever mark in my life. And by doing so, erasing that person out of my mind requires extreme measurements which i dont think i am capable of. For now, i cant talk to X since X is shutting everybody off (mood swings laa) even the parents and surrounding friends. Actually, i could give X a call, but i just dont dare to. Kang kene sembur tak pasal2.. I felt guilty coz I was the last person to speak with X on Saturday before the sudden mood swing. Makes me wonder whether I am the reason behind.
Then again, I am shocked why I am giving too much thought on this.. maybe i'm holding too much on X.. i need to release my own grasp.. Please someone rescue me..
2 comments:
who is this mr. X *curious*
u've allocated one entry just for this X
must be a big deal (>.<)y
just someone who need to be least significant to me.. i need to reduce my brain process % on him. huhuuu. after this, most prob no more entries on him (i hope).. buat aku depress jek.
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