goodbye 2009, welcome 2010

resolution? what resolution?? owh, u mean the New Year resolution?
mine is just typical students' --> survive and finish school & get myself home, proudly

today is already the last day of 2009. the day which mark the 365th day of knowing Dear. he, who i once thought would only be my single-serving fren; but now is my reason to live.

sadly, we wont be together to celebrate it. actually, same goes with all the celebrations we hv in the year (i.e bdays and such).. long distance r'ship is a pain in the ass. but well, i love him anyway.

very very much, muaaahhhhhhhhh!!

owh!! this also means i'm approaching the 'late-20s' in few days. SHOOT!!!

i miss my rainbow....

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi
Tak bercahya namun kau berseri
Tapi cukup menghiburkan
Hati ini..

2 weeks before going back into his arms...

Boxing Day..

so today is my 1st ever boxing day. it's almost the same like Black Friday (US) but it's pretty disappointing here coz the Factory Outlet wasn't opened. but well, i dont hv the money to shop anyway.

went to Bondi to accompany my fren shopping. bought a brandless clear Roman slipper for AUD5 at the shop outside of Bondi Mall. that's pretty much it.

speaking of shopping.. so what if i dont like Coach, Guess, Nine West but like Esprit, Roxy, Billabong instead? feel young rite? huhuhu~

* these 2 days move painstakingly slow.

lost...

i feel tired of my life...

i wonder if +1 is statistically significant here..

the question

some questions have the easiest answers to some people. question like 'asal mane? (where r u from)' sounds simple to u; but it wasnt for me. years after, then it comes as breeze for me to answer Putrajaya. i just made the assumption that they're asking where my parents are living now. not where i was born or where i grew up.

however, there is one question that i still find it hard to answer.

'who is ur bestfren?'

if bestfren is defined as somebody who has been with u long enough to know ur habits (good & bad), been there together thru the good & bad times, knows everything ure talking about and just let loose whenever ur together; then my straight answer now is my Dear. if ure referring to somebody among my FRENS, then i have none. i have few of frens whom i know they could lend a hand anytime i'm in hardship and happiness but they're close frens, not bestfrens. no hard feelings..

badly enough, it's all my fault. people see me as being fun most of the time, i hardly had painful times showed to them. being me, i shade any type of downside emotions from people around. i admit, i cant tell them anything when i'm feeling bad coz i dont want them to see me weak. in other words, i hv this 'face' i hv to maintain.

i just can't just open up.. this is me.

every night..

bau bj bucuk..
tenung gambo kt hp..
sengih sorg2..

u're beyond help la liyana. hahaha!

Dear Liyana,

Please...

.. be aware of ur surroundings all the time.
.. do not be a burden to others.
.. do not follow ur hunch blindly.
.. understand that every action has its consequences.
.. do not complaints much.
.. suck up.

why r u hurting the one u care for??

then...

and then, there is me.. and only me...

when all my closest fren around has left Sydney for good, the feeling of being alone crept in.. not only for the summer, but for the rest of my upcoming year..

no more frens' place to trash.. no more frens to watch movies & read blog together.. no more frens to just kaco2 anytime.. and no more frens to ask for courses 'how-to'..

i wanna go back.. now and not coming back here..

i'm alone...

.....

sakit gigi...... : (

plz....

let Monday comes fast.. i need him ASAP : (

Grand Pacific Drive Dec 5th

Grand Pacific Drive is sensational, a roller coaster ride through coastal rainforests, seaside villages and along a sensational strip of coast. The coastal route drive passes through from Sydney, starting in the Royal National Park, heads south to Wollongong, Shellharbour, Kiama, ending just north of Nowra, at Bomaderry.

Sea Cliff Bridge

Wanna hug Dear, but dier xde...
so just hug the tree instead..

7 Mile Beach

End of 150km journey..

food-

let's recap what i eat for today...

bfast:-
what bfast?? woke up at 2pm.. but i was hungry, so choco nuts

hi tea:-
mamee tomyam, mint green tea AND choco nuts

dinner:-
nachos with salsa, choco nuts

supper:-
cheese nachos with salsa, more choco nuts

a week of these than u'll gain that 5kilos back hahahaha!! stop eating crap, liyana.

Cherry Picking Dec 6th

After almost a year being in Oz, this is my 1st cherry picking trip. for those in Malaysia, cherries here are way way sweeter and better than those we have there hehehe.

Hui, Me, Syafiq & Yana

"Stylish" laborer Yana & Syafiq
- Pak Arab mane plak ni..

oh Cherry~

Partner in Crime, Hui
- byk ni je mampu kutip

Liyana & Liyana

CherryHaven
Town of Young

Big Merano

Summer~

Grand Pacific Drive completed.

photos and details to be uploaded soon..
too tired to do anything...
time to go to bed..
ciao...

perasaan...

ape perasaan bile org ckp "I have all of 4 HD mark" dgn slambernyer kt kite??

.. and u dont get that; and ur marks are all at border line to the better grade???? by border, i really mean BORDER like 1,2,3 points?!?!?!?

rase cm nk bunuh diri, bley???

* HD - high distinction (kire cm GPA 4.0 )

the questions..

in my mind over and over again..

what am i doing?
why am i so stupid??
is this alright??
can i just be gone?....

sangap

feel like throwing up from watching movies & TV.
went to city, but only spent less than 5 hours there. i hv no idea what to do there...
end up, back to being a couch-potato. argghhhh!!

i need smthg to do, w/o the need to spend any $$$!!!

time

it's only November 28th, 2009..
when will January 9th, 2010 comes???

time moves slower than Mr. Turtle nowadays.... aihhh....

it's that "season" again... * sigh *

movie list

what have i been doing for the past 3 days??

>> being a couch-potato..
>> watching
The Notebook
The Exorcist
The Exorcism of Emily Rose
Diary if the Dead
Shutter
Ju-on
Last House on the Left
Nang Nak
Kuntilanak
Forest Gump

--> horror movie time!!
next: Ju-On - the Grudge

Floriade, Canberra 2009

*sweat drop*

summer is here. nobody can deny the heat and sweat even it's 2am in the morning. and guess what? it's only the beginning of summer. i had to think twice about stepping out of the building with these hot days. i wonder how it'd be in December..

now what should i do...

*target next week*
> go for walks, swim!<

50 days vs 1.5 months....
why does it feels like time hardly moves??

days of boredom...

my days of boredom has started.. i'm counting days to go back.. really am wasting my time..

why am i so unlucky in so many things?

speechless.......

i think my sleep cycle has turned the other way around like before.. i could hardly sleep even if it's already 1 - 2am.. slept at 6am two days ago and slept at 4am yesterday.. hmm... need to sleep earlier today (NOW!) coz i'll be having a loonnnngggg day tomorrow.. only 2+ days left for my project submission and i just realized that there are tonnessss of things to do when i finally sit down and started...

and i only managed to do 2 out of 5 analytical questions (not including the 5 simulation questions) in half day!!!!!

D.I.E..

advice??

from MSD meeting with Hall residents just now:-

"ajar anak2 ni susah.. ye la.. tgk time2 solat, time2 ceramah drang bg anak2 dok pusing naik turun (tgkt atas bwh) Hall, main pintu, tekan sane sini, conteng dinding.. yg peliknyer, mak bapak drang nmpk tp bleh wat xtau je.. jd sy harap kamu yg duduk di Hall ni bukak2 mata lah sikit, tegur mane yg boleh (yaa.. pastu silap2 kitorg yg kne marah ngan parents bdak2 tu) ...."

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it's 4.50am and i can't sleep... hmmmm.... i miss my botak guy.... how will these 3 days w/o him be?....

fritters

today i got to eat 2 weird light dish.. cucur SAYUR (vege fritters) and cucur KURMA (dates fritters). strange as the name sounds, i ate hell lot of them hahaha! hv u ever heard of fritters with cabbages and dried prawns, or fritters with dates??? it sounds as out of norm to me like when i first heard of ' asam pedas ayam'....

i stil want my cekodok jagung and cekodok pisang!!!

finally done with my exams.. nothing much other than hoping that i'll pass everything..

but....

i stil hv 1 project due on the 19th *sigh*..

life is not fair...

exams...

sakit kpale...

sakit perut...

sakit pinggang...

sakit badan....

seems that i'm prone to sickness lately....

i cant wait for my finals to finally finish.. although i stil have a project due a week after that, the stress level is totally different that having 4 exams in 7 days.. worst, when u literally have less than 7 days to prep everything (thanks to ur projects and assignments)..

ok, i'm not supposed to babbling on these. like Dear always says.. what's done, is done.

i stil hv 1 more exam to go.. the 1st thing i'll do is SLEEP like i've never slept before.. i miss sleeping w/o being awaken by ALARM!!!

in my room...

this is what my view like everyday, every time...
i like!

* those peps in the photos, u know who ure.. thanx for being around..

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Kutunggu mentari di hujung siang
Tak kusangka awan hitam menjelang
Sumpahku jadi tak pasti
Nyatalah mimpi, mimpi yang mati

aku rindu...

KerisPatih – Lagu Rindu

Bintang malam katakan padanya
Aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya
Embun pagi sampaikan padanya
Biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya

Reff:
Tahukah engkau wahai langit
Aku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya
Kan ku pasang hiasan angkasa yang terindah
Hanya untuk dirinya

Lagu rindu ini kuciptakan
Hanya untuk bidadari hatiku tercinta
Walau hanya nada sederhana
Ijinkan ku ungkap segenap rasa dan kerinduan

freaking w'ends...

ok, so i lied.

i can't get away from my blog, no matter what. well, most prob coz i'm not feeling down now.. thanx to Dear, muaahhhhs!! altho he wont be around tomorrow and when i start my 1st paper on monday, i hope i wont freak out. i think i'm used to babbling to him to calm my nerve a bit before going to the exam hall. jeles plak dier lg frequent merendek ngan pokok2 je dr merendek with me...

here's the schedule for my 'action-packed' 7 days..

2/11 Mon - Advance Power Electronics <= hate this class
3/11 Tue - Mixed Signal Design
6/11 Fri - Engineering Econs
9/11 Mon - uElectronics Dsgn & Tech

bad news is, i'm not really done on the 9th. i still have a technical paper due on the 19th. sheeshhh, thanx to the Prof for not deciding what our project should be earlier.

ok la.. wish me the best and not tension2 je kejenyer... (my only ubat is him..)

**dear, now that u've read my letter.. do u know how much i miss u? kangen... i wish i could just go back like in this song..

i miss laughing with u..
i miss me...

i'm here to tell that i wont probably be updating my blog for awhile due to my final exams coming up next week..

after i'm finished, i'm not sure when i'll start writing back.. i'm troubled, my mind is occupied and i don't have the mood to write....

c u all when i c u..

shoot! i'm DEAD. period.

i absolutely hate materialistic people..
why is everything got to be about money money money?!?!?
xphm.............

unpredictable

pg td bgn, rase sejuk.. pas mandi, rase panas plak. siap bdiri dpn kipas lg.. pastu kuor pegi uni, mak aih... kuat giler angin.. ujan lak tu.. org2 dlm kete tpi jln ni mesti gelak lam ati tgk aku ber'battle' dgn angin bersenjatakn payung yg dh melengkung.. bengong.

td balik2 bilik je trus bukak heater.. pastu turun bwh letak susu dlm fridge.. naik bilik rse panas lak.. bukak kipas (heater td ON lg).. tp pas 5 min, sejuk plak smp meremang2 bulu kt tgn.. OFF kipas.. pastu nengung tpi tingkap, rase lg sejuk.. bukak plak heater satu lg... ahhh bestnyer..

cik matahari, bile saudari nk kuor??? buah ati sy ckp dier asyik dgr sy komplen sejuk dan ujan je spjg masa sjak sy dtg sini (march '09).. hehehe cptla kuor ea..

E.A.T

i used to eat really fast when i was in high school..
then it started to slow down in college..
but i picked up again in Purdue due to the fact that i only had 20 mins to eat before starting my shifts.

after graduation, i guess it slowed down to normal speed.
but it got slower when i started working.. maybe coz i usually had full hour to finish a plate. so what's the rush rite??

here, i tend to eat slowly. coz i'm used to eat alone and i like watching people around me..

the thing is, i know my eating speed is common, or so i thought. then i realized that i'm a slow eater when..
~ i went for meals with frens and they cleaned their plates b4 me
~ went for trips and others had time to went 'jln2' and i'm stil not done when they came back
~ had meals with dear and yes, he had to wait for me as well...

apart from that, i also had this peculiar remark about the way i eat... few people said i eat orderly. 'mkn kemas', they said.. is it because i always eat (western food) fries first, then the meats, then only others like salads? easily said, i eat portion by portion..

is that weird??

i dunno why.. but i'm feeling down again..

where r u?....

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a week left before my 1st paper..

apekah?????

"ilham tersebut diperoleh semasa mengadakan lampias minda bersama empat lagi rakan2"..

sape tau apekah itu yg dimksdkn dgn "lampias minda".. brain-storming ker???

kindness

after the whole night of feeling down and pouring out everything to him, i woke up feeling so much better today.

and after helping a lady carrying her son's stroller down the stairs, i felt much more better..

it's true kindness does boost up ur spirit eh?

ceritera ari ini

lupe nk tulis..

i got another shocking news this afternoon..
i think i'm officially a shock-absorber la..
byk sgt news ni...

nothing much i could say..
Congrats to all..

distance..

at time goes by, i noticed how apart we've been. hard to say whose fault it is, maybe it's all mine for leaving.

since then, we've been living the separate life we've been having, altho i used to try not to notice. in my days now, i sometimes think of u but there's nothing i could do so that we wont drift.

everybody says the bond that we have could never be broken even if we die. i don't know whether it's true.

we're different, way too different...

tiada..

kdg-kala aku terfikir, betapa sebenar miskinnye aku..
aku xpunyai seberapa..

aku miskin ilmu.. aku miskin harta..
aku miskin rakan2.. aku miskin dlm kehidupan aku...

tp aku harap,
aku xmiskin dgn kasih-syg....

round, round and round....

routine for this week:-

morning - go to comp lab, go to class
afternoon - more classes or comp lab
evening - classes or comp lab
night - more lab..

lab == projects..

this is my 9am to 9pm schedule for these 5 days...
= no life. period.

i'm sinking............

only 1 word that could describe what i feel now..

RUNSING

what should i do???

i'm not regretting this, but these are making it harder to not to.
Grad schools is 100% opposite of Undergrad life.

Suck it up liyana.
U can't change anything now.
Make the best of it.
*sigh*

apekah???

in FarmVille (a game in Facebook)--->
" this animal is busy".

what? ngan aku (tuan punyer farm) pn dier leh busy??
Sengal.....

Hall-mates~

if ure a so-called "frequent reader" of my blog, u'd know that i'm now a residence in Malaysia Hall Sydney. Coincidentally, my roommate is also 'liyana'.

at first, i was a bit scared. Coz the idea of needing to make new friends again is not so appealing to me. But when i first met her, i know we could get a long well.

She's from KL and obviously the talkative type (which lawyer dont, rite?). But she's from Uni of Sydney and will only be here for 2 semesters. What makes it awkward (early stage) is when i wanna call her..

"yana, u nk ikut i pegi Randwick tak?".. sounds like ME talking to ME! she also said the same thing hahaha!

well, that's one pal for now.. will write more later.. this couple of weeks is a crazy one for me... wish me the best!

week12

it's officially week 12 of semester. another 2 weeks of classes, then it's finals!

shoot! i now realize i have tonnes of things to do. am starting to freak out!!! no more time to play2 or poye2. ggrrrrrr~

before that, i miss my dear.....

today....

sahur: 0030 hours
iftar: 1910 hour - glup! glup! mineral water..

1930 hr- prof still talking.. since 1800 hour... extreme hunger~~~

1945 hr- stil talking.. huu~ i want chocolate.. chocolate...
2015 hr- finally a break. had rice & popcorn chicken in 10 mins.
2030 hr- class resume.. cpt laa abes... chocolate.. chocolate....
2120 hr- finished! but got 15 mins before the shuttle comes..
2125 hr- choc!! here i come!!!!
2210 hr- reached Hall. eat more rice, fries & popcorn chic..
2245 hr- choc yeay!!!!!
2305 hr- stil eating choc hee~

2315 hour - zZzzzZzzz....

i've been searching for places to go to study. u know, places with bright white light and the correct mood. i've tried computer labs, libraries, lounges and others. but no matter where it is, seems like the library is the best place. of coz, that'll only work if u don't bring ur lappy or use excessice net surfing on ur cell LOL!

for me, i dont really prefer going to library, coz i had to go out and walk to Uni and i can't sit in any position i want or eat at anytime i want. i need to find a spot in Hall. but i guess i do need to go to Uni coz normally if i go to Uni, that'll be like solid 4-6 hours of studying. that's the correct way of studying right?

i'll figure it out soon...

just around the corner ~

it's already Oct 6th. there are less than 3 weeks of classes left, which also means i only have more or less about 2 weeks to finish up all of my projects and papers before they are due on the 23rd. i felt a bit worried but not to the state of absolute chaos yet. hope i wont reach the helplessness.. then come the thought of my finals, a week after that.. 7 days to wrap up the whole semester..

but owh, u shouldnt worry about that yet liyana. u still hv ur projects to do. cepat! cepat!

wak... cmne ni wak?? cm ag teruk dr last sem je ni..... wak ganti sy bley???

it's been raining the whole day..

starting from today, it's an hour earlier for Australia. it's the beginning of Daylight Savings, so Sydney will be 3 hours ahead of Malaysia (compared to 2).. an hour sounds like a big difference for me.....

it's 0003 hour of Sunday. today is another day full of eating. i had (instant) Cappuccino and Cornflakes +Milo cereal for b'fast. then it's sushi for lunch. finally open house for dinner, where i ate tomato rice, curry mee, pulut kuning and beef rendang.. but that was around 6pm. and yes, i'm hungry now!!! i just finished another bowl of cereal and i'm running out of food to eat.. so i'm going to bed.

i wanna hv a pleasant dream tonight, as it's been such a great day for me (u know why my dear). Nite-nite dear, nite-nite everybody...

too many to absorb at once....

as of today, i'm done with all quizzes for this semester. it's now left with 1 lab, 2 projects and 2 technical reports... everything need to be done in 3 weeks.. then it's final exam time.. which also means it's less than 2 months before semester 2 of 2009 ends...

i got a shocking news just now.. suddenly almost all of my Kulim frens are getting married. tonight i know 3 of them. tekejut..... only 3 of my close frens left, but it's no surprise now if later i'll know it's their turn too.. i'm soon to be out of their league............. somehow i felt rejected...

Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift..

today is about random things..

i can't reaaly think much now... so this time, everything is random...

Below is the most vain staircase in my Uni.

why?

coz when u reach the top stairs, there is a big glass-wall (in other word = mirror)...

so u could see urself and fix anything needed to be fixed hehehe!

next, is new usage of my hairband..

hahaha to prevent my choc nuts from rolling all over the place..

finally, one of the iftar food i had last time.. mihun soup. SPICY!!!

see how red the sauce is... i like!

food

today, i wanna talk about food. specifically, what to eat/drink and what not to eat/drink..

being a Malay, there are certain type of food and drinks ure encouraged and discouraged to consume during certain time period of your life (i think chinese and indians as well). honestly, i don't really know which of those. i may only am aware of statements like nenas is tajam, kelapa is sejuk. but i know there are a lot more, especially if u ask the older-older generations.

of coz i believe there are (scientifically proved and not) advantages by following the guidelines, but .... being me, as long as it's safe, i normally just eat and drink whatever i want to, at any time (while i can).. i think in the future when i'm pregnant or in 'berpantang', i would definitely need a list in my purse. there is no way i could remember all the dos' and donts'..

or maybe i should just practice being in the safe side?? only drink plain water and eat rice with ikan goreng....... persoalannyer then.. larat ker nk telan?? or.. i could just ask my hubby to take care of all the food?? hehehehe

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*right now, i wanna eat bubur b'lauk (porridge with tonnes of stuffs u throw in)!!!!

MARA.. di manakah allowance ku??? xlarat ari2 mkn biskut ngan cereal je ni.....

mango

waak!!!! sy dpt mkn ini, yeay!what is this, u say?
this is the best way to eat mango and pineapple.
with sweet soy (a.k.a kicap).
but i didnt hv sweet soy sauce, so had to improvise kicap masin + gula.
boleeyylaaa...
baik badak dr kuda kn??

engineers...

i saw this at the main entrance lift in electrical engineering & telco building last week.. hehee~

Sun shining bright but with cold cold wind....

it's September27th. it's supposed to be Spring, but it feels like Winter. The heater is on in the room but i'm sneezing and having a cold. And i'm supposed to be on duty at the Info Booth for Mfest at the Harbor in the evening.. cpt la allowance msk, i need to buy Panadol & Tylenol...

Wrong timing, mate!

Mfest

today i got my lazy day (altho i'm kinda stuck on what should i do..), then tomorrow am going to Tumbaloong Park to pick up my shirt for Mfest and sunday is Mfest day! i hope that'd keep me off my mind from thinking of him too much..

i've decided to have cendol, pisang goreng (fried bananas), Ramly Burger and a lot more!!!!!

* tomorrow i'll be getting my allowance, hope it's the correct amount AND includes the 2 months backdated ones as well...*sigh*

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gloomy w'end ahead. it's a fact and there's no way i'd be happy when he's not around..

my roomie will hv classes on fri sat and will be staying at frens' during that time for the rest of the semester, dear would be out every w'ends as usual.

i really am left alone, aren't i?

what of today

Sydney had DUST STORM today.. but it's gone now, only the harsh wind left. Weather forecast said the storm will come back on Saturday... looks like jerebu (haze) minus the smoke-smell..

I have finished my lab for next week. So i could have a head on the next lab. This shows how much i love digital circuit than of analog. uurghhhh!! i ended up finishing it after i got back from class at 10pm without realizing it's almost 1am when i'm done. talk about ke'ghalik'an..

now i'm going to bed. i hope i'll dream of my Dear coz i miss him badly....
*sob*sob*............

masa....

skali tgk jam.. kol 7.30pm.. pusing2 mkn roti.. g toilet.. bc2 sket lab.. tulis2 sket...

tgk jam baru 8.15pm.. shoot! br 45min ke? so sambung tulis2 sket.. men game.. becucuk tanam kt facebook.. tgk2 gambo...

tgk ag jam, baru 9.14pm!!!! aaarrghhh!!!! mati kesangapan cmni...............

tolong.........

it's week 9

it's week 9 of class. yesterday, the design task for 2 of my classes have been posted. both are due in week 13, along with another technical report from my other class.. i'm starting to feel scared and full of pressure, whether i'm capable to finish them within the time limit.. apart from that, i have 2 quizzes next week and bi-weekly lab reports..

somebody asked me just now, 'dh start akademik ker? rajin nyer... ni 3rd day raye ni'. Dang! i already had lab during my 2nd raya and a class just now..

EiD Mubarak!~

due to extreme lethargic-ness, the owner of the blog couldnt update her blog that well (a.k.a long entries)..
just a short note: (jgn ingt cini xde bunga api) hehee

Hope ur Raya has been bleesed and fun!
i'll be back soon~

30th Ramadhan

now is 4.44am, saturday morning.. karang ader gotong-royong kol 11.30 at Hall. i'm supposed to go to uni to finish my lab with Minjal and Tripati, but i guess i hv to go after finished cleaning. maybe at 2.30pm. the lab closes at 6 on w'ends..

i dont hv the mood to stay at hall for iftar.. so maybe i could just wonder around at uni til 7 or 8.. maybe i would find a spot to cry my heart out... i already miss him...

the sun is not shining at me altho it's bright nowadays.. i frown most of the time, and sometimes smiles reluctantly.. for some reason, i felt that there are walls closing in on me..

nothing seems to be on my side right now.. felt that i've come to another halt in my journey.. it does feel that i've been here before but looks like i've to climb higher to get out of this hole.. it's hard to pretend that everything's fine, but i guess i did well coz no one ask..

wish he's here..

Aku ingin engkau slalu, hadir dan temani aku..
Disetiap langkah, yg meyakiniku,
Kau tercipta untukku,
Sepanjang hidupku...

it's going to be a cloudy and stormy week ahead.... i wish i could find a place to retreat.....

nothing much to say

finidhed my exam about an hour ago.

Conclusion: it sucks. correction.... I sucked. period.

t.u.b.a.r.e.s.....

I hv an exam tomorrow.

my update is i got to eat sardines with kobis msk lemak for sahur.. it'd be perfect if there's sambal ikan bilis and egg (demand plak erk?)

more update later~

this is bad....

tomorrow dh stat kelas balik! huwaaaa!!!

and my selsema is getting bad. i've been sneazing whole day, and dgn bijaknyer without realizing it, i was filling in the saf during tarawikh directly at the flow of the air-cond. nice...

i just ate Chlorpheniramine Maeate pill (or in other words, ubat selsema) but i wonder if it works... last time in Desaru it didn't. then the label says that i might get sleepy soon hehehe~ can i sleep when i've already slept for 2 hours before iftar?

wak, sy berjaya tido ptg jugak arini hahaha

of food.. and feeling uncomfortable..

i think my stomach will explode of i eat like this everyday (lucky it's only during w'ends now)..
*tgk wak, sy mkn byk2 pn makin susut gak. cmner ni?

apart from that, i'hv been having runny and itchy nose since last night. it got worsen when i woke up early in the morning (due to the cold, i guess). then comes the headache and the sudden heat engulfing my body (agak musykil dgn ini)..

am i getting a fever?? given the condition when i get sick, i better not! i hv an exam next week and i need to study...

Qiam

it's 2.37am now. i'm waiting for 3.15am when the Qiamulail is supposed to start later on. once after all this time back, i managed to sleep even at 11.30pm. but yea, i was wide awake at 2am..

honestly, i dunno what to expect. my last Qiam was like ages ago, i believe it's in MRSM years. like 9 yrs back.. per schedule, the Qiam is supposed to be at 3.15 to 4am, then sahur and later Subuh at 4.45am. this is rather a short Qiam i would say. i used to go for 3 hours Qiam (== 2 hours of sleeping at the back of the praying hall) during my sekolah agama years hehehe.

funny thing, me and my rumie were getting ready to sleep at 11pm when suddenly an announcement was made and somebody knocked on the door. turned out that there was a b-day and farewell 'makan-makan' going on. so we rushed downstairs, ate 2 slices of cakes (caramel cheese and choc moist) and head back to sleep.

adeii.. I ATE A LOT TODAY!

ilmu

amal tanpa ilmu itu jahil,
ilmu tanpa amal itu bodoh.

it's true isn't it? although to me, dua-dua pn xde guna. manusia sentiasa boleh membuat pilihan samada mereka ingin dikategorikn sebagai salah satu drpd 2 kategori ni, atau pn tidak sama skali. sedar atau tidak, seseorang itu sentiasa dlm proses mencari ilmu.

so bila rasa ader ilmu tu, xsalah kite beramal dgn cara yg paling mudah iaitu dgn berkongsi. jgn pikir yg ilmu kita ada itu mungkin xseberapa sbb kite sdiri xtau tahap ilmu sesorg insan yg lain. kite mungkin ingt seseorg itu sgt bijak, tp ketahuilah tiada manusia yg tahu segala-galanya.

bahkan, for me. lg byk yg sy tau, rasa mcm lg byk yg sy xtau. and lebih2 lg sy berada di sebuah institusi pengajian, sy dpt lihat betapa byknya pilihan yg pelajar2 ada. ya, sy mungkin mengetahui serba-serbi mengenai engineering tp bgaimana agaknya tahap pengetahuan sy di dlm ekonomi, IT dan lain2 lagi??

i'm not that smart aren't i?? are u?

2/7

tuesday is almost gone
== means i will only have 5 days from my midsem break left
== means i've gone thru my 2bdays without doing anything much productive
== means i hvn't start studying for my Advance Power Electronics exam next week!!!!! Noooooo!!!

therefore, tomorrow u gotta get ur ass up to the library Liyana. NO EXCUSES!!

* Iftar --> Chicken Rice
Later --> Fried Macarony, then more rice...
whoa! like u said Dear, suddenly i got a lot of food :)

Tarawikh note*

a mistake due to my limited knowledge on the Tarawikh.

turned out that the common surah in my previous entry is al-Qadr. the surah is being recited as sunnah.

it's weird for me since ever since i know, the masjid i went to always recite the whole juzuk per day during Tarawikh.. this is the alternative to recite short surah instead. During the 1st to 15th night, al-Ikhlas will be recited during the 2nd rakaat. and then al-Qadr for every 2nd rakaat during the period of 16th - 30th of Ramadhan..

hmmmm

wak...
luv u luv u luv u luv u luv u luv u luv u luv u luv u luv u luv u
mmuuaahhhhhhhhh!!!

iftar today

lupe nk citer... i went to iftar at the Hall like the usual w'ends.. today's meal was sponsored by Petronas Australia (thanks!!)..

the 1st round of food was the 'kuih-muih' - kurma, popia goreng, samosa, bengkang, kuih tako and some fruits. after maghrib prayer, it's briani with chicken curry, with salads and popadum as sides. after trawih, it's bubur kacang with durian and fruits (strawberries, grapes and oranges). even the drinks were of many options - apple & mango, apple & berries, multivitamin juice, tea and milk tea.i have to say today was very filling and i ate like crazy. the serving was huge and it's kinda sad coz i couldnt finished the briani. it's too much. plus, i was helping in serving out, so after while, i dont feel hungry anymore... i only got to eat after the others has finished. the hall was packed so there're people eating outside under the tent. we'll see tomorrow...

owh and i got to do my 1st tarawih prayer (shame on me, only start doing it after half of Ramadhan is gone!!).. i only did 8 rakaat and for some reason the imam recite the same surah at every 1st rakaat of 2... i find it puzzling coz i never been to prayers like that.. anyways, it doesnt really matter.. i guess i will only be able to go to tarawih with different Juzuk recital in Malaysia after i graduate..

good bye......

tonight is my last night at this house. starting tomorrow, i'll be officially staying in Malaysian Hall. moving there mean i'll loose the privacy of staying alone in a one-bedroom, which i had the liberty of for the pass 3 years..

but by doing so, i'll get to know a new friend and lots more since it is the Malaysian Hall. i'll hv to be used to not playing my music out loud all the time, turning the lights on til 4am when i couldn't sleep, not wearing anything i want in the room, not being online for 24/7 and crying anytime i feel like it...

life will be filled with sharing of everything, doing weekly chores at the hall like cleaning and keeping any kind of sound down. but well, it''s a choice i've taken. so i hv got to face it whether i want it or not.....

noooo!!!!! lagu raya dh kuor kt radio..........

lost??

i wonder what i'm thinking... hehehe
r we lost?? Venice is such a maze....

U've finished ur course!!

Congratulation my Dear for finally passing your exams & ur SHO course!! muaahhhh!
pasni xyah sakit kepala nk study lg :)

Zon masa berbeza bagi generasi Z

this article is rather intersting.. and i hv to admit, a bit true for me at some portion.. hehehe

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2009&dt=0816&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Rencana&pg=re_11.htm&arc=hive

Malaysia Festival, Sydney

For those who'll be in Sydney area end of this month, do come to the Annual Malaysia Festival 2009. It'll be held on Sunday, 27th September 2009 at Tumbalong Park, Darling Harbour. This is my 1st year here and i wouldn't miss it! time to go and see all those M'sians things.. and eat all those M'sians food...

My Family & I

buat-buat bodoh

ingatkn dh blajo tinggi-tinggi ni, jd pandai.. reti bahasa. xkn bahasa melayu pn x paham2 kot?? ke saje je buat x reti? dh dasar x betimbang rasa kn....

slalu tgk Buletin Utama online, mesti akan fwd bile smp part2 iklan tu.. tp arini tegerak ati plak tgk... de iklan Merdeka yg byk.. de tazkirah.. aduuihhhh kuih-kuih raya pn dh kuor pulak... mau tat nenas yg bulat2 tu... mau popia serunding yg kecik-kecik tu jugak.. mercun pn dh ader. naakkkk!!! nasib laa blom ader iklan raya lg.. syahduu....

on a side note, 1st time tgk iklan merokok yg AGAK real kt tv mesia.. dh lame pk, sbb kt Oz ni iklan smoking dier tunjuk effect direct jek (wlpn lagu dier bengong xkene).. and of coz lg real and scary compare to mesia punyer.. patut buat je cmtu, bior tekejut sket.. aku sdiri pn tekedu tgk 1st time dlu.. dh la elok tgh mkn.. nasib dh biaser tgk CSI... kalo tak, bwuwweekkk!

52th

I'm too late in wishing this.. Sydney is already Sept 1st but Mesia is still August 31st..
So Malaysia,
Happy 52th Independence Day

Merdekakah jiwa ku?

too old~

terasa cm org tua pulak.. satu badan rase sakit-sakit..... ni baru 20+, blom 40+ lg. wlpn badan sakit, tp... mcm sugar-high je aku ni.. mkn kurma byk2 (cthnyer 15biji) leh sugar-high ker? ceehhhhhh!

f.o.o.d!!!! a lot!

i went to (Malaysia) Hall today for iftar. well, 1st time going to iftar outside of home. and i ate way to much. had porridge, dates and tea first before praying. then, it's time for the main meal. there were choices of fried mihun, noodles or rice, apart from pandan jelly. mine was fried noodles. the portion was huge, i could only eat 1/3 of it. after tarawikh, there were Moreh. this time abg Sam (the sponsor of the day) prepared cucur udang (batter with prawn) and chili, kek pisang goreng (1st time eating this but it's yummy) and something like bengkang. gosh, i ate more during Moreh than breaking the fast. too many oily stuff liyana!! and now my tummy hurts.......

well, we tapau a lot of porridge and the jelly for sahur and breaking fast tomorrow (not that i'll eat).
aihh i wonder when i could settle all the monetary stuff so that i could budget to buy stuffs for popia (spring roll) before i move to Hall.......

what's with Incredible Hulk???

I just notice this.. am i obsessed with Incredible Hulk or am i destined with him (xndak tapi) ??? the 2 pics below are from 2 separate places i went years apart..This was taken in Berlin, about a month ago (July 2009)

And this was taken during my Western Roadtrip to Universal Studio, LA in 2005 (with Aya & Bib in the pic)

The fact that both photo has Incredible Hulk and taken in the same time period - WINTER makes it a bit odd.. scary ekk?

soklan2 yg sengal..

Hari ini anda....duduk dpn laptop ngadap drama korea.. tp ari sy baru bermula slamer 4 jam lebey wlpn skrg pukul 6.41pm hahaha.
Kaki anda.....dibaluti 2 psg stokin sbb trase sejukkk sgt. Iye la, name pn winter kn?
Komputer riba anda...dh burok dh tp stil bley berbakti. Tp br gune 30 min dier dh hot dh.. apadaa..
Kepala anda... kpale sy.. nape dgn kpale sy??
Kasut anda... kaler dier itam.. spt mane kebykan kasut2 sy yg len.
Band kesukaan anda....susah nk ckp ni, mane yg best layan...
Kereta anda...kaler itam lg, sy rindu kete sy. Jauh di perantauan sane hehehe!
Hidup anda... saat ni xde ah best sgt.. tp syukur la sbb idup lg..
Kerja anda... ngadap laptop ni ble dh sangap, cthnyer skrg ni.
Motor anda... tak wujud sbb sy tak reti bw moto.. org ckp sy terrer pick up blajo, tp bw motor la satu2nyer yg sy mmg xphm2 bile blajo..
Henpon anda... ader je kt tepi ni.. sy suke Sony Ericsson!
Anda ada.... ati dan perasaan. Ye la.. smer manusia pn ader kn?
Baju anda... lebey 70% berwarna itam.
Anda suka.. masak dan makan.
Anda tak suka... nyamuk yg suke ngeeonggg-ngeeonnggg kt telinga.
Anda sedang... menunggu citer Harry Potter stat kol 7.30 kang. Ader lg 45min.
Anda berasa... sangap.
Anda tak berasa... puas ati.
Dua tahun dari sekarang... sy dh abis blajo (insyaAllah) dan balik ke mesia yeayyy!!!
Dua tahun lepas... sy sedang melepak kt umah Kulim. Enjoy nyer life.
Masa kecik-kecik, anda... suke bawak beskal laju2 turun bukit dpn umah yg angle nyer dkt 60-drjah smp slalu hampir kene lggr. Xkene lggr pn, masuk parit tepi jln. Owh beskal BMX-ku yg hebat~
Anda mula.. tau sy takut darah time eksperimen biologi form 5 biler tgk mmbr sy cucuk tgn dier.. huhuuu~
Anda menyesal... pegi Europe aritu sbb skrg idup dikelilingi utang 
Anda memang mahukan... idup yg xde masalah dgn bf tercinta, tp mustahil mslah xde..
Anda suka... men air. Ape2 yg kne ngene ngan air.
Anda rasa... duit MEMANG punca segala masalah. Idup zmn batu pn best kalo takat nk beli lauk tu leh trade in ikan ke.. ayam ke.. kambing ke..
Anda rasa, sepatutnya... sy buat assignment skrg ni.
Anda akan.. pindh umah next week. Ucapkn slamat tggal kpd tangga yg suke cium sy dan pili air yg suke short-circuitkn sy. Yezzaa!
Anda... betul2 rase sangap.

Suatu Masa - M. Nasir

honestly, this song has been on my mind a lot.. lagu ni direct tp lirik dier has deep meaning.. kalau lah ader org in real life ckp cmni.. cam balik ke zaman Melayu Melaka, tringat citer Puteri Gunung Ledang.. time tu jatuh cinta ngan M. Nasir sbb his scripts were beautifully said.. puitis giler, and it suits him well..

aih.. kalo lah bley blk ke zaman tu (minus all the perang2).. it'd be nice, kn wak?

Bagaimanakan ku mula
Dan apakah kata-kata
Yang indah untuk diabadikan
Tiap wajah berkisah
Tiap madah bererti
Manakah ilhamku

Cahaya di matamu
Senyum di bibirmu
mengukir seribu tanda pertanyaan
Mungkinkah kau jua dalam kerinduan
Di saat begini aku merindukah

Berhelai-helai surat
Terbiar di depanku
Tak dapat aku utuskan
Ku ramas semua
Dan ku buangkan
Jauh dari pandangan

Lalu aku kesal
Ku kumpul semula
Tak dapat ku nyatakan apa yang ku rasa
Jika engkau tahu di dalam hatiku
Mungkinkah kau sahut jeritan batinku

Dengarkanlah panggilanku
Dengarkanlah lagu untukmu
Angin lalu kau sampaikan
Rasa rindu yang membara
Kepadanya

Warna-warna cintaku
Kian pudar bersama
Malam yang gelap gelita
Entahkan kau rasakan
Apa yang aku rasa
Atau kau tak endah

Tapi ku percaya
Semua telah tertulis
Dan niat suciku takkan disiakan
Dan di suatu masa
Di hari yang indah

Ku hulur tanganku

Lalu kau terima

wwhoooossshhhhh!

arini is super-windy. i thought of cycling at the park in front of the house, but after mandi i decided not to.. even the trees are swaying crazily, i dont want to be blown away like a piece of paper.. i hope there won't be smthing like a thunderstorm tonight....

* still looking for smthg to do now (other than assigmnts...) pemalas!

mencari kekuatan dalam kelemahan...

w'ends == sangap

what more can i say?......
aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! ape aku nk buat ni.......

hahaha mmg laaa aku sangap. ni post ke-3 within 2 hours! i'm going to bed after this.ini adalah my pic of main bowling.. obviously i'm not a pro sbb average pin i usually got is around 60-80.. kalo lucky, tetiber leh jd 120+. which is sgt pelik la kn, out of the blue sgt..

anyway, this was in Kuantan Megamall (ea ke wak name mall ni?)

me, ezrul, kecik & shaira went to bowl after we watched a movie. i thought i dont wanna play, but i did for a while while waiting for dear to pick me up... and that my fren, is the last bowling game i played in Malaysia before coming to Sydney......