walking down this rocky road

wondering where my life is leading

rolling on to the bitter end

finding out it's getting harder each day

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it's the 10th day of Ramadhan, another 20 days left. i know in M'sia, Raya songs has started being played by some, people already picking up their new clothes and thinking of the food they usually got to eat once a year.


as i think of it, i dont really hv the intention of celebrating anyway. feel that the only reason there is is the food. maybe it's just the fact that this will be my 6th time to be celebrating away (with 3 yrs gap in btwn), so the day itself has pretty much lost the meaning. 


honestly i no longer enjoy what it used to be. even while i was working, given chance i dont mind being at work. but that'd be awkward considering that i was the only Musilm in the team, so there was no "no coverage" issue to be in the office. 


then, there is the fact of being here which just enhances the effect. 


no baju raya, no kuih raya, no raya feeling for me. it is just another day celebrated after a month of fasting. that's all..